Work in Progress
Is there a recipe for happiness when a mother can’t eat, and a daughter can’t stop? In this brave, funny novel a 12-year-old girl searches for acceptance when being bite-sized seems the only choice.
Eden Sterling is a talented chef who is starved for her mother’s approval. A mother who thinks body shaming will keep her daughter out of the kitchen. Then the tables turn. Mom is diagnosed with anorexia and Eden hopes her cooking will save her. First stop is a kid’s culinary school to better her skills only to meet a fat-phobic rival who knows how to sharpen a knife. Now Eden must prove food is not her enemy. Unless it is. While binge-eating meals sent for the family she discovers she must defeat that rival in a cooking competition. But when an already nervous Eden is accused of sabotage, will she fight for her sweet ending or watch her dreams go up in flames?
Sometimes I caught myself dreaming about having a YouTube channel with a million subscribers. Then I would remember my life was so boring even I didn’t want to follow me. Until the day something insane happened and I wished for things to be boring again.
Immediately, if not sooner.
It was the Saturday of Labor Day weekend, and my ridiculously athletic family was doing their “thing.” Mom was stretching after her run through Central Park. Dad was mapping his bike ride to Brooklyn. And my fifteen-year-old brother, Jayden, was dribbling a soccer ball because Sir Clueless thought he had practice. Wrong again, bro.
I wished I had a “thing” so they would stop teasing me, but my idea of fun was binge watching the Food Network and Googling menus from famous restaurants. I also loved hanging with people who appreciated me like our doorman, Alonzo, and my building besties (the ones with cute kids and dogs). So, when Mom asked me to get a package in our lobby, I said sure. I missed seeing everyone after spending the summer at camp.
“Thank you, Eden,” Mom said. “By the way, it’s a back-to-school gift for you.”
“Sweet. Is it a new phone because mine keeps dying?”
“It keeps dying because you’re always on it.”
“I’m always on it because that’s what influencers do.”
As a trial lawyer she kept a million facts stored in her brain. What she didn’t know was how people became internet sensations although she suspected they had to be good at something. That is why she checked the time instead of giving me a congratulatory hug . “Please hurry back. It’s our special day with Glamma.”
Define special, I thought. We were going bra shopping with my grandmother at the store she brought my mother to when she was twelve. Because what girl wouldn’t want to continue such an awesome family tradition? But complaining would get me nowhere. Wherever Mom went Glamma followed and once they put a plan into place the voting was over.
Then I thought of Glamma’s favorite saying. “Darling, if nothing is going right, go left.”
“Do we have to go today?” I asked.
“It’s on the calendar.”
Mom always made it sound as if our schedules were decided by higher powers in a distant galaxy, and only they could change it.
Cue: eye roll. “Why can’t we shop on-line like normal people?”
“Because we don’t know your size now,” she said.
“It’s the same as before.”
She lowered her glasses. “I’m afraid you’re bigger everywhere.”
So fab to be treated like a disappointing purchase she couldn’t return. But, welcome to the Upper East Side of Manhattan where skinny daughters were as valuable as penthouse apartments. If you had one you were the envy of those who didn’t.
And had she forgotten about this little thing called puberty?
I raced to the elevator to avoid any more lectures on healthy snacking (“Read labels!”) and good hydration (“Drink more water!”). Or as I called it, The Lori Sterling Method of Tortured Living.
Alone in the hall, I stood in front of the shimmery gold mirror and had our millionth invisible fight. “Do you think I want to be like you? What’s next? Intermittent fasting?”
But when your mom was a fist-banging attorney who made grownups cry it was way less scary pretending to be a YouTube star. Hand on hip. Lips puckered. “I’m Eden Sterling, Greystone Academy’s favorite influencer. I used to be a classic underachiever until…”
Joking. My snacks would get more followers than me. In the mood for Twizzlers? Ask Eden. Thirsty? Eden has coconut water. Must be why this boy, Henry, told my best friend he liked me.
I found Faith’s text.
FAITH: Doesn’t matter why Henry likes you. Don’t you want your first GOOD kiss?
EDEN: With Corey Boxer!!!
FAITH: Practice on Henry so you’re good at it with Corey
EDEN: Or I could get a kissing tutor
FAITH: They have those???
There should be an emoji for friends who didn’t get jokes.
Finally, the elevator opened, and I was alone except for the security camera. Luckily my buddy, Alonzo, wouldn’t snitch on me for popping a Starburst in my mouth. Then another.
He bowed as I walked past his gleaming desk. “Welcome home, Sweetie Edie.”
“Alonzo! What is up?” I ditched the candy wrappers and plopped into my favorite chair.
“The sky is up and hopefully the stock market… Are you here for your package?”
“And to hang so my people know I’m back.”
Ding. The elevator opened and out walked our retired neighbor, Mrs. Adler, with her miniature poodle. “Millie! Give me kisses.” I nuzzled the doggie’s nose and hoped she didn’t think I needed a tutor. “Did you behave for the groomer?”
“She did,” Mrs. Adler said. “And I’m so glad you are home because I’m baking apple pies this weekend. Care to assist?”
Hmm. Organize school supplies or spend the day turning squishy dough into a mouth-watering dessert? Hopefully Mom wouldn’t turn the invitation into a teaching moment. “Studies show that butter is one of the leading causes of heart disease.”
“Can’t wait,” I said. Mrs. Adler never obsessed about calories and she let me use her lucky measuring spoons. For some reason they made my hands tingle as if there was magic tucked deep inside the wooden handles.
She smiled. “Come after lunch on Monday and bring your new recipes.”
“I found one for chocolate mousse in a blender, but it still looks hard.”
“If anyone can figure it out it’s you. You’re the next Rachel Ray.”
I liked her positivity but doubted her psychic powers. Yes, I dreamed of being a chef. No, I would never be famous. Exciting things only happened to other people.
Mrs. Adler hugged me goodbye as Alonzo returned with a big box. I had begged Mom for these white jeweled sneakers Faith thought would be perfect for my first-day outfit. Or maybe she was surprising me with the puffy purple bag I added to her Amazon cart. Shhh… It had lots of secret pockets for snacks.
Could they both be inside?
That would be a sign she wanted to fight less. Hang out more. Be besties like her and Glamma. But as I juggled the box at our front door my good mood fizzled like a cheap sparkler.
My parents had mentioned something about renovating our apartment while I was at camp. They failed to tell me the plan was to throw out half my childhood and donate the rest to Goodwill. Now I was finally getting a good look.
Buh-bye front closet where I used to play hide and seek. Adios dining room table, my homework headquarters. See ya comfy couch that was perfect for trivia night. In their place were a powder room with lighting bright enough for night games, stiff black leather seating and a granite table that looked like it had been ripped from the side of a mountain.
Fortunately, the wooden bar stools in our cozy kitchen were spared the dumpster.
I placed the box on the counter as Mom walked in. “What took so long?”
“Alonzo asked me to save the planet, and I couldn’t find my cape. Can I open my gift?”
“Eden, we’re late. And please go change. Those shorts are…”
“Tight,” she said. “Do you want people to judge you?”
By people do you mean you?
“Why don’t you put on that cute romper Glamma bought you?”
Ewww. The romper’s bright floral print was not my style and if it was also snug Mom would hold it up as Exhibit A. “The defendant is not drinking enough water.” Maybe if I cooperated, she would agree to my terms. “If I change can we stop for bagels?”
“Let’s have yogurt instead.”
“Yum. Yogurt. Says no one ever.”
“Fine,” she said. “Open the box.”
I wasn’t sure what my dream sneakers had to do with starvation, but I punched a hole through the center of the carton and ripped open a flap. The anticipation made my pulse quicken as I imagined how many likes I would get when I posted my fashionable feet. Then I peeked inside and felt my eyes sting like I was chopping onions. No sneakers. No bag. Just rows of squishy containers with names like Very Vanilla and Strawberry Sundae.
My old friends, Sad and Frustrated, returned from their summer vacay. “Mommm? Do you remember seventh grade?”
“So, you remember wanting adorable high tops and getting protein shakes instead?”
She folded her arms. “Must you always overreact?”
“I’m asking what they have to do with school. Do they taste like science experiments?”
“Studies show that students who start the day boosting their metabolism perform better on tests.”
Again, with the studies. Were there any showing what daughters of carb-deprived mothers knew? Boosting metabolism was code for losing weight and mine thought I was fat.
I ran to my room and slammed the door so hard my dresser mirror shook. Would she ever know my truth? I was so, so, so tired of acting tough while dying inside.
“Mom,” I whispered in the mirror. “Sorry I’m not your little clone, but you still need to like me.”
“Eden!” she yelled. “Glamma is waiting and you need bras.”
“Yeah, Eden,” Jayden mimicked from his room. “You need bras.”
“Knock it off,” Dad called from the kitchen. Then he lowered his voice, though when you are in the next room in an old building the heating vents tell all. “Go easy on her, Lori. She doesn’t even know yet.”